Anger
I’ve noticed lately that I quicker to anger than I used to be. I hate being angry. It takes time away from the rest of my day and puts me in a bad mood. I have a few ideas for why I am more hot headed than normal: 1. The more I learn about America, the more frustrated I become, 2. I have a lot I am trying to do all at once, 3. I don’t know enough.
The more I learn about the American system, the more frustrated I become. This is mainly related to government and economics. It seems to me, (I am by no means an expert), that most things done within the U.S. government over the last 25 years have been to help wealthy, usually older, people. This was especially true under the Trump administration. Where is the help to the young and less economically fortunate? They’ve been putting blankets on top of a fire trying to hold on long enough until they’re out of office and it no longer falls on them to deal with the mess. Eventually, that small fire they tried to hide is going to be a roaring inferno and it is going to fall on the younger generations to put it out or burn.
I have a lot I am trying to do all at once, and it’s not happening fast enough. There are so many ideas bouncing around in my head and I can’t turn them off. It is causing problems in my focus and in my short term memory. I forget to do tasks because I move on to the next big thing without first wrapping up the last few small steps. It has caused a general sense of chaos to be present in my body most of the day.
I don’t know enough. About anything and everything. I don’t know what I want in life, i don’t know what business I should start, I don’t know what I am good at. I need to know more. If I can become an expert in something, I can make a business around it, but what do I enjoy enough to want to make it my life’s work? I just don’t know.
This is the part where I usually offer a solution that I will use to solve my problems. While there are many ways I could help these issues, I am not offering a solution at the moment because I don’t have one. Some form of taking a step back, trying to control what I can and worrying less about what I can’t, and maybe talking to a therapist, all sound like viable solutions, but right now I am letting the beast run wild.
Imposter Syndrome
How can I have an opinion on anything or give advice? I don’t know enough about anything as I just said. I don’t have nearly as much experience as most people, but that’s alright. I am not trying to preach or teach, I am trying to share. I am sharing lessons that I have learned, either through my own trail and error, or from others who have shared theirs.
Why would anyone want to use my services for their business? (I am starting an advertising agency for local business.) I am not an expert and barely know what I am doing. Who said I was an expert? I surely didn’t. I am not going into this business trying to portray that I am. I am very open and upfront that I am not an expert and have only a small amount of knowledge compared to other, more established companies. I am different because I can come into it with goal to focus 100% on learning and seeing what works best for their business. Also, because I am so new to this market, I am not charging for my service. This way I can gain experience while providing value to potential clients.
The Power of Now
Whatever it is you want to do, do it right now. If you want to start a YouTube channel, stop everything you are doing, pick up your phone and record yourself talking to the camera explaining why you want to start a YouTube channel. Now upload it.
The hardest part is the first step. We can overcome the fear of starting with action. By the power of now I am referring to starting right away, when you think of something, do it. Need to take out the trash? Don’t put it off until later, do it right now. This is similar to the 2-Minute Rule.
I want to start a business. I have been thinking about it for many months now, maybe a year. I have always put it off because I didn’t know what kind of business I wanted to start, or I needed more money to start it, or it wasn’t the right time because I didn’t have enough free time. Guess what? It was never the right time, so I am starting it right now.
Whatever you want to do, do it now!
